rough draft. (this is almost the exact same thing as previous post)

His grace is sufficient enough for me. (work still in progress)

we are mist. we are humans and we aren’t capable of anything. there are just some things in life we can’t control. whether or not you give that up to the Lord, that’s up to you. ( i needed that reminder today)

God is so much stronger. So much greater. His love is everlasting and His plan is genius.
Oh Lord,
I am desperate for Your Spirit. Thirsty for Your presence and longing for You. I have to admit, the past week has been chaotic and I was in constant motion. But today. I was moving with Him. I’m really thankful for this day. Especially just spending time walking with Him. It was intimate and refreshing to know that He is my strength and without Him, I can’t function.
I needed that reminder. I always need that. I am disobedient and unworthy. I have lost myself slowly for my journey in searching for my identity in Christ.
I need to know the Spirit. I need to be desperate for it. I need to be completely dependent on the Spirit which is God. (Acts) 

And I’ve realized that I have been  taking things for granted (because it is so easy to) (that was a really bad excuse) (genesis 3) nonetheless—the simple things- like eating whatever I want whenever I want. I need to start allowing Him to provide me with food. living out proverbs 30:7.

 ⁷ “Two things I ask of you, O LORD; 
   do not refuse me before I die: 
⁸ Keep falsehood and lies far from me; 
   give me neither poverty nor riches, 
   but give me only my daily bread. 
⁹ Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you 
   and say, ‘Who is the LORD?’ 
Or I may become poor and steal, 
   and so dishonor the name of my God.

Sitting here, I almost feel like screaming and breaking something because I felt like I forgot Him.
That is a super scary thought because if I wasn’t dependent on Him and being obedient, who was I being dependent upon?
So, I share this with you because this has been on my heart for the longest time and it’s been a struggle.
Lord, please, please, please give me just what I need so that I won’t forget You again. My desire is You, Jesus and I pray that You come into my heart and lead me. Lord, I’m also praying that You make sure that I’m denying my selfishness and myself for Your spirit. That You are working through me. Praying for focus and just simply obedience.
More of You, Less of me. Please, Lord. I’m pleading and praying.
Thank You for Your continually love. I don’t deserve it but yet You’ve given it to me. With that alone, I praise You my God forever. I pray that others will encounter You, who You are and How great You are. You are my Creator. You are my King. 
-me