You are more.

I have recently discovered that the Lord is my ultimate teacher. I have been so frustrated, so selfish, thinking that I can control my attitude/emotions.. to say the least.. so unfaithful and disrespectful towards my own Father who thinks about me more than all the grains of sand on this Earth. He had to break me down, twist me back and forth and slap me in the face in order to show me that I have no idea what I'm doing and that I needed to realize how dependent I am.  I realized that His plan is simply perfection. I am impatient, unworthy and so out of control to deserve a Love like this.