My heart has been tearing apart this week with situations that have snowballed up to this point. I felt that I was in war with myself, in the middle of a spiritual and fleshly battle. Through God's Word, He has convicted me by how weak and incapable I am on this Earth. He has made me realize that I need Him everyday. More than ever. I now know how timid, shy and scared I am to do the one thing that Jesus has called me to do and that is to spread is gospel and love. I have been disobedient in a sense and it finally clicked this week. Last night as I was laying in my bed spending time with Jesus, I felt my heart quenching and hurting like someone was squeezing it but I also felt loved and comforted. I knew He was holding my heart in His hands and telling me that everything was going to be okay if I just trusted. Tears streamed uncontrollably down my face and I quickly fell asleep in peace.
How beautiful is that.

Jesus is the light to this world. He is Holy. He is the truth. He will challenge you. He is the way and He loves you. He has a plan for your life and He will follow through. He knows who where you will end up, what you will do with your life, who you will marry, how you will serve Him.
Follow Him. Give Him your life.
You will experience a love so personal, intimate, graceful with Him than any other relationship you form on this Earth.

I leave you with this.

For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. Ephesians 2:8

We love because He first loved us. 1 John 4:19