have faith, trust God.

These last couple of weeks have been tough. There are certain things that I haven't been able to give up to the Lord because I felt in control. (FYI, I am never in control) I am not God. I don't have the ability to control anything and because of that it has been really difficult for me to trust Him. April was a really tough month for my sister, Lindsay. She is diagnosed with epilepsy and had several seizures. I was really worried and I kept thinking to myself and even declaring that if anything were to happen to her, I would come home immediately and take care of her. To be honest, I was terrified, worried and scared. Instead of coming to God about it, I took matters in my own hands. Reality hit. Number one, I was telling my friend everything I just described above and she immediately put me in check. I am not in control. I can't plan out my life and I can't be thinking ahead like that. I am so arrogant and impatient but the Lord is graceful and merciful. He put Ludz in my life for a reason and gave her the words to speak to me and tell me the truth.
Two,I was sitting there with my group members just talking and one of the group members mentioned that her sister had epilepsy, the second girl said "me too!" and then I said "me too!!" What are the odds that three people in the same class, same group are going through the exact same thing? All of us are the older siblings too. That is God at work and showing me that he is control. He is faithful and He loves me in a way that is so intimate in which He would put two other people in my class that are going through the same thing. THAT is amazing.
And lastly, I was on twitter this morning and came across David Platt's post about a little boy. I clicked on it and it was a blog dedicated to a little boy named  Sterling who is currently, at this very moment in surgery to get his brain tumor removed. Similar to Lindsay, he is experiences seizures even more severe than hers. Yet, he along with his family is putting all their faith in the Lord.
That is beautiful.
God is so merciful to His people, He answers your prayers and He loves you.